Several weeks ago, I read a Facebook
post about how someone would still have nightmares about school.
Naked in the hallways. Late for class and freaking out. The type of
dreams that plagued me in my youth occasionally. In that post, they
asked how many people still had dreams about high school. I found
that interesting. Up until that point, I thought I was the only one
who couldn't get the past to leave them alone.
In school, I guess I had the life that
has become the favorite enactment for underdog heroines in movies. I
was teased and tormented. Always chosen last for sports. I had kids
put gum on my clothes during assemblies and I had never been asked to
dance until my senior prom. The big difference between my life and
the movies? I didn't have a popular prince who came to my rescue. I
had books, band, and an imagination that wouldn't quit.
I'll be honest, senior year changed
everything. I had a decent group of misfit friends that were awesome,
and I had a serious boyfriend. That year, I was genuinely happy. But
let's face it...one year of happiness can't erase eleven years of
misery.
Here it is, over ten years later, and
I'm still having occasional nightmares about being left out of the
group. What's worse, I still wake up sad. I hate that most of all.
These days, I'm honestly happy. I have
an amazing husband, three kids who fight over who gets to sit next to
me, and I have a more friends than I ever thought possible. I'm truly
happy. I don't know if I will ever stop having those dreams, but, in
a way, I hope I never do. Every time I have them, I wake up more
thankful for the people I have in my life. I used to hate the people
that made fun of me. Now, I think I'm grateful for the lessons their
behavior taught me.
Thought for the day: Youth is not the
end of your life, even when you want it to be. Eventually, things
change. Until then, sit back, grit your teeth, and know that the
adult world is VERY different.
Sorry I was late with this post, guys.
We are looking at a new house and I've been doing paperwork and
research lately. See ya next week, readers!
Autism Facts for the week:
Not every autistic child is born
with symptoms. Many children do not show signs of autism until they
are older. Here is a website with a list of symptoms that are signs
of autism in children.
Since this will be my last autism
post for the month, I wanted to encourage everyone to look up local
programs in your area that work with autistic children and ask what
you can do to help. Working through these small companies will help
assure that the children benefit directly from your donations.
Thanks for reading!!
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